Whats going on!!

so.. the last post sounded sad as some of my friends told me.. hahaha.. well am actually on my standby right now.. and found a little bit time to write.. here goes..

i just spoke to NR my younger sister.. everyone is so stressed at home.. dont know why.. papa n mummy is asking me to call them.. thats wht NR said.. i was laughing.. u know why?? i havent actually spoken to them for the past few months.. i hv always called NR or my other siblings.. just dont know what to update my parents with.. friends, parties, work?? come on!!! QR is having her SPM exams.. one girl that gives me so much pride just being her sister.. her understanding with me is impeccable.. her discipline is just hard to believe.. if i could turn back time, i want to b just like her at the age 17.. and she cooks better than me.. hahahhaa..

at the same time, NR was telling me the misunderstanding she had with YR, my eldest sister.. i was not taking sides.. its just not fair for either one of them... i was telling NR wht to do but i havent spoken to YR yet.. i might b d second one in d family but my ranking is just below my papa.. everyone listens to me... hahahhaa... thats not the case in my wildest imagination.. hhahhaa.. mayb because i am very neutral with people and i just dont really know how to hate someone unless that someone has hurt my family.. thats all.. hatred takes me nowhere.. that is one thing im sure of.. we r all human and we make mistakes.. so if i can make mistakes, why cant others?? and yet u want life to b fair... hahahhaa.. funny isnt it?? okay back to NR n YR disagreement.. listen YR, u were like her before.. mayb even worse.. i was there before myself.. cant u just give her some space.. dont try to b an angel if we r not.. what she is doing is no different than what others are doing.. do me a favour both of u.. say sorry to each other, kiss n make up... i just dont understand why do u guys hv to take things for granted?? we wont be together forever.. soon each of us will be having our own life that doesnt include each other anymore.. but when i called NR again later, as hard headed as she has always been, said that she just wont say sorry.. hahahha.. i was giggling saying she was just being impossible.. we'll just c who wins.. :) and i had to go to sleep for a while before my standby starts..

for the past few days, i had my share of disppointments as well.. i had a standby and a manchester flight.. that flight was what i needed at that point of time.. i didnt want anyone to get near me at all.. i just wanted a review time for myself of why things are happening the way they happened.. is it because i couldnt be bothered about things or is it because i was too careful till i missed the small details or is it because i let them happen intentionally or unintentionally?? i had few drinks with a colleague of mine and it was good since we were just talking crap.. i didnt want to go back.. i knew when i get back to this new place i called 'home', it will be the same old &^$%.. it is the same *&^% indeed when i came back...

PB knew everything that was going on... she was such a sweetheart when she extended her shoulders for me.. i know with this girl our friendship will b for a long time.. and trust me it is a good one... with people like her with me here, my ups and downs felt lighter.. friends come and go.. but true friends remain still.. there r some new friends i've made a couple of days ago.. n we clicked right away... her name is HMN... just luv talking and sharing thoughts with her.. n she's sooooooo funny... she just came back frm a flight and i might c her on my off days.. if my dearest bestie AR, is around is even better.. nothing beats him.. just a darling and one of d longest and trusted friends i hv.. where is he anyway?? will call him tomorrow... mayb he is in town...

seriously i dont know where im heading with my post tonight but i enjoyed writing them.. feeling sleepy a little but going to continue chatting with..... so till then...